Well, this is new for me. I've gone back and forth with the idea of blogging for the past couple of months. I probably will not make this too fancy, and I don't promise the frequency of updates because I already have enough time wasters throughout the day. But I started one. YAY!!! And this may be boring to some. Sadly, I'm not very creative with crafts or have much wit to add. However, I have a story. And so this will be glimpses of the story God has given me now, things that he's teaching me on this journey of life.
So for now, the lesson of the day is...GRACE! Whew...what a word. I know verses upon verses about grace. I've heard about grace all of my life growing up. I know that God's grace changes lives. It does not always make sense to me. He takes the ugly and makes it into something beautiful. But something I've been wrestling with lately is that I cannot perform enough to get God's grace. And honestly, this is a tad bit annoying for me. I am quite a driven person. I like to strive for excellence in the different areas of my life. And part of this striving is for excellence with my Creator. Even though I know he already loves me, I still try to work for his favor. But what if I miss the mark? What if the other areas of my life are not achieved with excellence? What if I don't even feel like I am achieving enough for Him? How can I accept God's grace and be free in the day to day life knowing that I'm falling short. And once again, there's grace. It shows my inadequacy more to show his glory. I wish I could be the best student, girlfriend, daughter, sister, counselor, youth worker, friend, roommate, and even follower of Him. But honestly, not all of those areas are going to be perfect at all times. Surprise, right??? j/k
So again, it brings me back to grace...not accepting inadequacy with pleasure, but accepting inadequacy with gratitude because it reminds me of my dependence on Him, that I was never intended to achieve every area of my life perfectly without him. And my driven personality is learning more these days that inadequacy is okay. And honestly, that brings freedom. Grace doesn't make sense. We can't earn it. But...we can accept it. We can let it transform us. So if you're like me, maybe the best thing you can do is stop trying to keep all of the plates spinning perfectly in life, and just breathe in...HIS GRACE! It's quite freeing!
So for now, the lesson of the day is...GRACE! Whew...what a word. I know verses upon verses about grace. I've heard about grace all of my life growing up. I know that God's grace changes lives. It does not always make sense to me. He takes the ugly and makes it into something beautiful. But something I've been wrestling with lately is that I cannot perform enough to get God's grace. And honestly, this is a tad bit annoying for me. I am quite a driven person. I like to strive for excellence in the different areas of my life. And part of this striving is for excellence with my Creator. Even though I know he already loves me, I still try to work for his favor. But what if I miss the mark? What if the other areas of my life are not achieved with excellence? What if I don't even feel like I am achieving enough for Him? How can I accept God's grace and be free in the day to day life knowing that I'm falling short. And once again, there's grace. It shows my inadequacy more to show his glory. I wish I could be the best student, girlfriend, daughter, sister, counselor, youth worker, friend, roommate, and even follower of Him. But honestly, not all of those areas are going to be perfect at all times. Surprise, right??? j/k
So again, it brings me back to grace...not accepting inadequacy with pleasure, but accepting inadequacy with gratitude because it reminds me of my dependence on Him, that I was never intended to achieve every area of my life perfectly without him. And my driven personality is learning more these days that inadequacy is okay. And honestly, that brings freedom. Grace doesn't make sense. We can't earn it. But...we can accept it. We can let it transform us. So if you're like me, maybe the best thing you can do is stop trying to keep all of the plates spinning perfectly in life, and just breathe in...HIS GRACE! It's quite freeing!
